Funeral :(

 Okj here are now the pics of the graves. The ones on top is where Mira (one of Chili's puppies) and Oliver (my bunny) are buried.. I put the roses and white flowers on the grave since they had already grown badk then..  and the lower one is where Bamse was laid to rest.. and here there are no roses because they're not ready yet, simple as that..

Eyes :)

Today's subject is eyes.. more precicely my eyes (the pics on the left are my eyes :P or well, the right one :P)

I actually like them.. like, the colour is cool :D
Orange-ish in the middle, lighter green around that, and a dark green-ish outline.. they're nice :D

This is the colour my eyes are

 most of the time; all colours equally visible

 

 

 

 

But sometimes they keep changing colours; at times the orange may not be much visible at all, sometimes the green middle-part may be darker and the outline dark blue-ish green.. also my pupil keeps expanding at the weirdest times. For example it's not always tiny in the ssun - it may be just the normal size, and it may also be gigantic in totally normal light. and NO, I'm not on drugs, s it can't be because of any kind of drug-effect :P

In this one the orange inline is barely visible, where as the green middle-part has got itself more space

Also, the range inline may disappear completely and the green middle may turn dark green and the outline dark blue-ish green.. which gives us the conclusion:
my eyes are totally awesome!!! :D

Here's a pic of the colours changing from normal to dark and blue-ish green.. they don't look that bad..?

annnddd here's an extreme case of dark green eyes.. my skin lok purple since I took this pic in the winter -> i was paleyyy :P

Not only do my eyes change colour, but they also have a nice shape (in my opinion).. like.. I've seen people with almost round eyes and people with totally straight eyes.. almost like lines (not talking about Japanese or Chinese people).. But mine are like.. like leaves.. hehe even the colour fits into that description..
Eihter way, I LOVE THEM!!! If I was forced into choosing the feature I like most about myself I'd say my eyes.. I know it sunds cheesy since many people always say they like their eyes the most.. but I really doooo.. most of the people I know have wonderful legs, graceful arms and wonderful hair and perfect silouhettes... yet they say ''hmm.. I dunnoooo.. my eyes?'' when they could just as well have said ''my hair, my legs, my arms, my face, my nose my body.. I love all of me!''... but yea..everyone may say what they like :D

Okj this is all for now, more bodily posts to come.. I suppose :PP


Byeeeeee :D

School tomo :/ mixed feelings

WAAA!!!!! I have school tomo.. in a way I'm excited, but then again.. naah not quite.. EASTER HAS BEEN AMAZING!!! I've felt as though I'm already on summer vacation (cause of wonderfully warm and sunny weather) :D
Of course it's going to be great to see friends again, but I want to sleep in the sun tooooo :S
And then a Finnish-exam on Thursday.. :S not looking forward to it.. YES I have studied, just not my favourite subject :SS
But tomo I have ballleeettt toooo!!! YAYY And we're goign to do stuff en pointé tooo :D aka I'll be off to use my Gaynors again :DD (link for the interest ones here) Gosh they're simply too awesome :D

Annddd what else.. yeaa.. we had a funeral for Bamse - our younger cat - who got hit by a car 1.3 :( Luckily he didn't seem to have suffered so it made the loss a bit less painful.. still, he was a young little buddy with many things yet to see :/

that's Bamse during his first night at our house ^^

So these are some thigns I've been upto :D I'll post a picture of Bamse's grave tomo (if I have time :S) :D

Until next time... SEE YOUUUU :D
Byebyebyebeybeyebyebeee :P lol

as promised.. EASTER!!! :D

Hahaaa EASTERRR!!!! Gosh I've eaten soooo much Finnish Eater pudding (Memma/mämmi) and cream that I'm gonna die :D

But other than that it's been great.. got some sun and also I've been jumping around on the trampolineeee.. aka I'm happyhappy :D


okj lol.. I'm off to randomize again.. seee youuuuu :D

Haha a warning on a deo-bottle :D

In other words: SOLVENT ABUSE CAN KILL INSTANLTLY *lightning flying around*
(just in case you were unable to read from the pic :P)
sooo yeap.. my deo (which ended a few days back) would've been able to kill tons of people.. nice to see deo-makers advertise the effects of deo-usage :P then people wonder how come people die.. they simply tried to use deo.. and failed.. miserably..
BUT eihter waayyyyy.... ITS EASTEERRRRR!!!!! more Easter in the next post.. this was just o inform about danger involved with deo :P

BYEEEE <3 and be safe with your deo (sounded sooo wrong :P)

haha :D yes, I'm seriously observing eye make-up pictures xDD I CAN'T HELP ITT!!! I'm a girl after all :D

hihihiii

♥

Me and my huge usage of internet :D

Okayy sooo.. as many people know, I'm in a long distance relationship with the best moomin there is ^^ ♥ and this whole dating-thingy has caused my internet-fanatisism to run WILD!!! I mean, I NEED interent for dating (really wish my parents would see that)!
Eihter way, I ♥ surfing google and youtube.. and FACEBOOK!!! Omg I couldn't live without it :P thankkkyou weirdo-dude-whose-name-I-don't-remember that created fb :D

Butttt now I'm talking to moomin, so byeeeeee :D

Physics!!

Kinetisk energi, eller rörelseenergi, för en kropp, är det mekaniska arbete som krävs för att reducera dess hastighet till noll.

Den kinetiska energin för en punktformig kropp med massan m och hastigheten v är

 hihii so I'm trying to understand that.. annnddd.. this: Potentiell energi är en form av mekanisk energi, tillsammans med kinetisk energi. Det finns två former av potentiell energi: lägesenergi och elastisk energi. I ett friktionsfritt mekaniskt system är summan av potentiell och kinetisk energi konstant. Lägesenergi för en massa i ett likformigt gravitationsfält kan beräknas med formeln

där m är massan, h är höjden och tyngdaccelerationen g antas vara konstant över höjdskillnaden.

so far.. I'm understanding it sort of okj, nothing too confusing :D


Now END OF THIS POST :P
Byeeee :D

3 years of friendship.. feels weird :D

:) soo today I got a bit nostalgic during Finnish-lesson; I realized me and Axe have known each other for soon 3 years!!
Yeaaa, we're a bit weird :P but it was really weird :D
We both were sort of.. shocked? Like, 7th grade we were friends, but not 'BESTIIEEEE!!'s since we hung with different types of people.. theennn.. 8th grade we were already goodygoody besties :)
Gotta love your friends, huh? ^^ <3

Okj but nooowww, I'll get into physics.. back to writing thennn :DD

Byeeee :)

My life as me ^^ ...

Yea, that's a little something I've done in school when I'm bored.. sorta happy with the way it turned out.. nothing too badly failed.. except for the curvy lines, but who cares :P

Okj now back to the point, which was my life as me.. a few years back..

Okay so, I've always been a bit of an outsider, never really fit in anywhere, so bullying has been a huge part of my life, all my life. I guess that's why it didn't hit me at first that this last ''session'' was to be way different from the previous ones.

I had just started at a new school since i changed from 6th grade to 7th, meaning I also had to switch school. I found a few people that seemed okay, so I wasn't alone during lessons or anything.
During a ''Minicamp'' the 7th graders always go on after 2 weeks of school to get to know people from outside their own classes etcetc. I met 2 of my closest friends (1 I had already gotten to know a bit in school); Isse (who slept under the table with me cause we were scared :P) and Jonna (sat next to her on the way back from campy.. laughed like mad all the time :P) annnddd Axe (best classmate there is :P always blabering about random unimportant crazy stuff :D). So i did have 3 close friends, and then some people from my class who shall be called ''they''..

So, before the camp I had really got sorta settled in class, found my place amongst the ''smart'' ones who always get straight 10's in everything.. even though I don't exactly get 10's in all subjects. Sooo I had heard about my grades before, and this was no different. People were jealous I guess, so they made fun of me cause of my grades; I didn't pay attention to it.

Things started getting worse when me and ''them'' were in art-class.. we were sending small notes with questions to each other. I, for example, said I'd had a few crushes, but nothing more serious than that. I really hadn't been searching for love in any way. Well, apparently I should have said ''ofc im dating 10 people each year'' to be 'normal' or something, but I was being true to the people I thought were my friends.

Then, the notes changed to the kind I wasn't allowed to read.. like, ''them'' and a few guys who sat in the same table as me were reading and writing on them, making sure I didn't see anything..  then all of a sudden the girls left the table and went to another one, leaving me and the guys in the 1st table.. then they'd come by and ask ''so Jenny, how's it goign with the guys..???'' and I admit, I was at the edge of tears at one point..

And what happened after this incident, people come up to me asking if I'm homosexual, I say ''eh, nope.. where'd you come up with that?''.. the person asking would say ''oh okay..''.. then people would ask me ''are you bisexual then?''. *sigh* I admit, I didn't even know what bisexual meant, so I'd say ''ehh.. I don't know..?''. That answer is, I think, the reason I got the label 'Lesbian'.. all because I:

1.  didn't have a boyfriend 
2.  didn't know what 'bisexual' meant
3.  listened to t.A.T.u. (I was CRAZY about them.. sigh.. *still am :D)

 Soo.. during 7th grade I was being attacked from all sides with looks and whispers. What really pissed me off was that not only was I getting the looks and stuff, but my few and wonderful friends too.. (I'm sorry for that btw).. Even the one person who had been in the same school as me before 7th didn't ''stand up for me''.. she was one of ''them''.. Also, people (at least a girl on my class) had tried to convince Axe into leaving me.. like, she wanted my firend to leave me because she didn't like me.. *sigh* buuut she didn't manage :) annddd Axe still remains my best buddy ^^

I quickly realized people were trying to drive me insane, not even trying to keep their opinions to themselves.. they were openly discussed on toilet doors :S nice to read :S 

Sometimes there would be something that wasn't listed on the doors that people would ask me about, and I'd look like this ''??? wha?'' just because all those rumours (like to call them that :P) were really weird.. I mean, sure, feel free to think what you want, but people could've at least taken effort to try get to know me before sending out stuff like that. 

I was coping with the talks for quite sometime, until:

a guy on my class came and asked Axe ''do you love Jenny'', she of course knew the thought behind his question and said ''no'', that made the person asking go like ''oh I'm so sorry, i didn't mean to ruin your relationship''.. GRRRR!!! We're friends for the sake of God!! Guess people always have to twist tales to make them more interesting..?

All this went on for over a year, and i still feel that some people haven't quite managed to see past those, and still think I'm the same person as the rumours told.. which I'm not.. *sigh*

I really felt abandoned even though I had my small group of friends. Even thought of suicide.. more than once.. cutting myself was something I considered, also jumping of a bridge into the ocean or onto a motorway was a possibility.. I just didn't see the point in my life. Then I finally decided to do something about it and told a teacher who told the principal who then spoke to ''them'' one by one.. only ONE of ''them'' apologized.. the rest of ''them''; didn't say a thing..
But the name-calling stopped - at least I haven't heard any more of it, and I've gotten my life back thanks to Vishu, my amazingly wonderful and perfect boyfriend. Sooo my point is that whatever people say, just stay around the people you love and care for. They will, no matter what, always stay with you and take your side ^^

First of all, now im in the 9th grade, back when all this started I was in the 7th.. so it's been a while, and it's still not leaving my mind.. Hopefully I'll one day be able to look back at it smiling, but as for now.. the memory mostly brings tears.. I'm just happy and grateful to God for saving me and hearing me when I most needed Him. And I try not to feel mad at ''them'' but it's still hard.. knowing that they almost ended my life..

BUT I'm here :) so no hard feelings ^^

And as I warned, this was a LOOOONNGG post, I'm happy if you read all of it :)

Nowww... byeeee :D

Got ''forced'' into this byyy.. a plant

Oookay, soooo.. I haven't been writing here in a while (sorry about that to all of those who had a normal life for once), but.. I AM BACK!!!
Actually, I was never away, just didn't have time to write here :D But now plantey forced me (okj he didn't exactly force me, I was going to do it eihter way) to write something :D

OKj soooo.. soon I'll write a post that will be long and sorta different from these.. it's just something that I really want to tell people; about how bad my life was a while back and how important friends and internet are.. (internet cause i have to talk to 60000000000 miles away... almost :D)

Eihter way, soon there will be a LOOONNNGGG post, just a warning :P
In fact.. I'll start writing it right now.. dunno if it'll get done soon, but we'll see.. sooo stay tuned (lol) for interesting and maybe even shocking stuff you may not have expected to hear from me.. :)

For now.. seeee youuu :D
Byeee ^^